and it's just a little crush

I don't know if it's just me, but I tend to think about what I'm about to write in my head, like I say it in my head first to see how it'll sound and it seems like every time I start a blog, I start it with the word "so." I'm trying to veer away from that a little though, thus you now have a nice little prologue to this blog that's completely irrelevant to what I wanted to write about.

Something happened today that reminded me of a conversation that Ashley, Jason and I were having at Denny's the other night. Music is common topic for all of us I think, and we were talking about having crushes on band members. (Or I guess it would be more accurate to say Jason was making fun of Ashley for having them.) While we were listing her various attractive and musically inclined boys, I started trying to think of band crushes that I have and honestly, it's hard to come up with any. Sure, I could list plenty of band members I find attractive but I also consider thinking someone is cute and having a crush on them to be two different situations entirely. You have to know someone at least a little bit to have a crush on them. I could go out to the grocery store right now and probably find someone I think is cute, but that doesn't mean I have a crush on him, so it's different. You can also think someone that you know is cute but still not have a crush on them. Case in point- I think the guys of NOGH are pretty attractive but I wouldn't say I've ever had crushes on any of them. But then again I've kind of pushed myself away from having crushes since about the ninth grade so maybe that has something to do with it.

Anyway, too many tangential details so far. I need to work on that. But the thing today that made me start thinking about all of this was that the one guy who I know from a band that would almost fall under the band-crush category was telling me he liked my new photos (check them out please) and it made me smile because I had complained that it's always hard to get people to actually look at them and he said he always does. It was cute, and a big part of why he kind of falls into that list has nothing to do with the fact that he's in a band, but more because of what a nice guy he is. He's totally sweet to people he hardly knows (ie me) and I've never seen or heard him be the least bit mean, even about the band he was in that pretty much kicked him out. But anyway. I guess my point is that it's kind of silly to like someone just because they are in a band, or to like a band just because its members are aesthetically pleasing. Which also reminds me of all the screaming children that went to see the Plain White T's/Takota show at the block. I wanted to shoot most of them because maybe two percent of them knew any of the words to Takota's songs and Ashley and I have been seeing them play for years now. (Grumble grumble, no appreciation for good music these days, blah blah.)

I could go on but then this would just turn into a rant about what I just wrote in those parentheses (how the hell do you spell that?) and I'd just rather not.

I think it should be Friday evening right about now. If I could just skip twenty four hours I think I might go for that actually. Living alone (sort of) can be nice for a while but it's getting really old by now. :/